Now, Bring me that Horizon

by Melissa on September 29, 2011

I love the ocean. Now, don’t get me wrong I do enjoy being in the mountains, but I just don’t get that simultaneous feeling of both serenity and exhilaration when I am in the mountains.

We have taken two trips out West this year and I was afraid that I wouldn’t get to see my beloved ocean until next year. I guess that comes with being married to someone who has your typical 9 to 5 career. But thanks to Paul finding a new job and being suddenly gifted with two weeks of vacation, we decided that a cruise was in order.

During this trip we had the opportunity to dive at two locations: first in Cozumel, Mexico then in Belize. It felt so great to get back in the water after a year away from my beloved ocean.

We got our open water certification a year ago on a cruise to the Caribbean, and it was on that trip that I fell in love with the ocean and promised myself that I would somehow find a way to be near the ocean as much as possible. However after coming home from vacation, “real-life” hit me like a freight train (as happens to most of us upon return from vacation… ) and I was swept back into the whirlwind of endless web and graphic design projects and lost sight of my promise to myself.

Slowly the feelings of not feeling fulfilled and overwhelming stress starting taking over my mind once again.

You can imagine what a welcome relief it was to escape on a cruise…

… if you’ve been on a cruise, you know that there is no internet on the ships, unless you’re willing to pay an arm and a leg for it. So, I ended up with plenty of time to reflect on the order of things.

Specifically, my career path and doing what makes me truly happy.

I always get on my friends who complain about not liking their jobs and yet, don’t do anything about it. So, why am I not doing something to change the fact that I’m not completely and totally loving my job with my whole heart?

I know some of you may be thinking, “Uhm, Melissa… You work for yourself. Why the hell are you complaining?”

It’s because for the past four years, I have worked 50 to 60 hour weeks on a business doing something that I was good at and liked enough. Not all that time was spent on client work, it was also learning how to run a business, how to find new business and trying to balance life and work all while working from home.

Although I am going to be taking a slightly different route now, I do not regret the time I have spent building a web & graphic design business. I have learned SO much.
1. How to run a business
2. Client relations
3. Marketing & PR for a small business, both traditional and social media methods.
4. And my absolute favorite: Incredible friends that I have made who either began as  a client relationship or through networking.

But, sometimes you just know that it’s time for a change. Maybe because you’re not happy anymore, because you’re burnt out or maybe it’s just time to move on.

It has taken courage for me to post this publicly, because of…
– The fear of not getting any work in the short term.
– The fear of not knowing.
– The fear of change.

What do I love with all my heart?

After putting much thought and soul searching into this, due to the lack of internet on the ship, the things that I love with all my heart:
1. Photography: Capturing images & stories
2. Food: No further explanation needed here *grin*
3. The Ocean: The water, the sights, the smells (yes, the smells) and the animals.
4. Storytelling: Whether that be through words, still images or moving images.

What do you love? Are you in a career that fulfills you? It takes some courage to discover what this truly is and sometimes, even more courage to decide to go for it.

I am happiest when I am near the ocean. I’m in pure bliss when I am on a boat jetting towards my next dive location.

What is your paradise or bliss? What does it look like? (Leave a link to a photo if you have one. I would love to see!)

I will leave you with a quote that kept replaying over and over in my mind every time I looked out at the ocean during my trip:

“Now, bring me that horizon.”

I am ready.

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September 29, 2011 at 1:54 pm

I press the “like” button for everything you said. So glad you two got a chance to take a dip and have some fun. And kudos for being courageous. Even when we really like what we do, there are times we consider changing. That’s okay – we’re allowed. Looking forward to seeing even more growth and creativity in your food and photography!


September 29, 2011 at 9:37 pm

Ah, the beauty (and curse) of being self-employed. We can change our mind on a whim!


Averie @ Love Veggies and Yoga
September 29, 2011 at 7:01 pm

What an awesome post! I am so happy that you have come to these major life epiphanies and that when you knew things werent right you actually DID something about it rather than just talking about it or walking thru life not really feeling happy or fulfilled. I can’t wait to hear more about WHAT it is that you think you’re going to be doing, or how it will evolve. When you feel comfortable sharing, of course. :)

And I love diving and havent been in a few years…must dive the next time we’re on vacay!


September 29, 2011 at 9:53 pm

Thanks Averie! I’ve (finally) decided that I need to take action after just talking and wishing about it for the past two years. I will be sharing soon! Just need to get some things finished and lined up :)

Next vacay… will you be diving in Aruba? Diving must be amazing there.


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